Since taking on blogging full time I’ve gone through many different emotions. Happiness, shock, scared, amazed, terrified and awe struck, just to name a few. Most of all I’ve felt so lucky to do something that I absolutely love, especially since leaving a career that I absolutely hated. But lately, I’ve definitely been feeling the pressure. With Instagram’s newest algorithm it’s harder than ever to get ahead. I have 13 thousand followers and for some annoying reason, Instagram only allows my photos to be seen by about a thousand at most. To say I’m frustrated would be a vast understatement and simply not a strong enough word. Because I love what I do and because this blogging world is super competitive I take great pride in the fact that I pour my heart, soul, and creativity into every single photo I take. So when barely anyone gets to see that photo that I’ve taken numerous hours planning, creating and editing it simply breaks my heart and makes me feel like somewhat of a failure. On my worst days I’m completely hard on myself and beat myself up but I’ve been trying to tell myself that it’ll get better and I simply have to keep pouring my heart and soul into it and it will someday pay off. I also try to tell myself how far I’ve come and how cool it is that people appreciate what I do and are even willing to pay me to take photos of their products. Even with so many great things happening I still can’t help but feel the pressure and still feel like I’m never quite good enough. But more often than not I tell this voice in my head to shut its trap and that I truly do appreciate everything I’ve gained and that I’m appreciative that this is actually what I get to do for a living.
So if you too get super frustrated and feel like throwing in the towel some days, just don’t give up. Because there are way worse things we could be doing for a job, in fact, I once did this and used to cry every day I had to go to work. So even though I may not always get the results that I want, at least I’m madly in love with what I do. And at this point, I figure I’m just going to keep creating and keep getting better and eventually I won’t be able to be ignored. So with my head held high, I will keep pushing forward and try my best to ignore the doubt and negativity. After all, I am woman hear me freaking roar!
Thanks to Belle by Joëlle for my beautiful makeup!
Thanks to Fingers, Faces & Feet for these amazing nails!
Boho & Braids xoxo